The difficult, confronting thing is ... I think the garden is finished! In 1979 I started with a fields of weeds and rubbish and a boring neat front garden and now in 2011 I have completed the creative task of transforming both spaces into gardens I love to be in.
I always said the garden would never be finished. I wasn't ready for it to be finished. I couldn't imagine what finished would look like. And there are still spaces I need to fill and bits I want to change.
But I think it might now be seen as an established garden. If this is true then from now on I suppose my task will be different - just maintenance, or tinkering at the edges. No more radical clearing of spaces and starting again.
Basically the garden has evolved into a finished garden and I have evolved into a fairly confident gardener, with normal (for me) occasional flashes of anxiety and self doubt.
This growing confidence enabled me to accept the opportunity to have the garden (and me) featured on the ABC's Gardening Australia TV show last year.
I accepted an offer to be included in a book called Gardens of the World that will be published in July this year. It describes garden blogs and I am sure many other blotanical members will also be in it.
This year the garden will be part of the Open Garden Scheme for the first time, open to the public for one weekend in October. I thought of doing this last year and the year before, but wasn't ready. I'm nervous about it, but going to do it anyway.
And the blog?
I started the blog in January 2008 to track the progress and changes of the garden. I always saw the blog as having a parallel existence to the garden. Continually evolving. If the garden is basically finished maybe the blog will have to evolve into something else.
In the next phase of the blog I plan to write more about the plants in the garden. I will also write about some of the nature and gardening books I have read and collected over the years. I have already set up additional pages on the blog's home page about these things.
When I started no one read the blog, and it really was just a diary. Then I discovered blotanical, and since then, have made wonderful cyberfriends, too many to mention. You know who you are!
In the beginning many of us agonized about what were the protocols of this strange new kind of relationship. But that seems long ago - you guys have taught me so much and been so warm and supportive ... I really appreciate you being part of my life.